Heart wrenching

This week has been exhausting and heart wrenching.
My Dad's health turned quite suddenly, and we all quickly realized how unprepared we are for what may lie ahead of us.

He felt some nausea on Wednesday, which slowly escalated through the weekend.
He was Very Gassy, and unable to hold down any food.
He experienced indigestion, acid reflux and a bloated belly.
All of this equalled discomfort and pain.

On Monday he went into his physician who was very reassuring.
The Dr. thought that it was a stomach virus.
He was prescribed anti acids and sent home.

He went into his oncologist yesterday, since the symptoms, though better, had not subsided.
He was still not able to  eat very much.
Today he was sent in for an emergency CAT Scan
and blood work.

We are now waiting the results.
our hearts are heavy. We are tremendously worried.
He was so full of energy a week ago.
It is hard to think that the cancer could cause so much stress so suddenly.
But at this point, who even knows what the cancer is capable of.

the hardest part of this whole journey has been the unknown.
We wait, we hope, we pray... and we live each day.
Each day is a true blessing
Each moment is heaven sent.

I cannot fathom my life without my Dad
I cannot fathom a life for my kids without their Grandfather.

He seems so very Vital to our lives.
Life is so fragile, and so fleeting.
It is unpredictable.
we truly cannot rest in the guarantee of a tomorrow
but live each precious day, each second; knowing that life on this Earth is not ours to keep.
it is simply a short opportunity to love and appreciate the gifts that we are given
so that we may ultimately grow closer to HIM.

If there is one thing I honestly, and truly realize,
It is that my dad is and always has been a GIFT
and I owe my love of God to him, because he has been my first experience of
sacrificial love and true forgiveness.

His tender guiding hand can never be forgotten.

Going with the flow is the easy part... unless there is a really strong undertow.

I guess it's just easy to get on with life as best as you can during he initial stages of this battle. We ground ourselves with "normal" activities, not to get away from the reality of the disease... but to live life to the fullest despite the disease

My Dad's recent visit with his 8 siblings and his Mom

The progress of the disease goes by fairly unnoticed. You figure... well, No news is good news and continue on with your daily routine and treatment. I don't know if everyone journey's through this challenge in the same way or not. I just know, that up until now, we have had the "wait and see" mentality.

Chelation therapy is being continued. Along with daily mineral and vitamin treatments. Dad is on his organic raw food diet, and is loosing weight rapidly. sugars and high proteins have been cutback. we have focused on eliminating toxins from his diet and environment.

The initial results of this treatment went well. Dad's Cancer cell count dropped dramatically, from 100+ to 27 in the first month of treatment.

In late August Dad's Cancer cell count was over 300

and in Late September it had sky rocketed to the 1,000's

We were devastated by this news.

We walked in with such high hopes, and we have found that the struggle to maintain the height of those hopes is beyond what we bargained for.

Through all of this,



At Chelation therapy



My dad remains courageous.

He is determined to stay the natural route.
Up until now, he has felt great.
He has had high energy and remain prayerful and positive.
He is a model to us all.

His greatest stress thus far is his finances.
I hate to see himself wearing himself down with worry.
But the truth is, finances are tight.
No insurance covers the cost of the natural treatment.
Savings are slim (with 7 kids...1 still at home, who would have savings?)
And to top it all off, with the amount of time he spends in treatment, he has had to go on disability.

Our current goal is to try to get Dad to the Greer Clinic in Tijuana, Mexico.
The cost is high, but if my dad wants natural treatment, he definitely deserves the best.

I have taken a few odd jobs to try to put some money together, but my responsibilities at home with homeschool, keep my options limited. I am trying to get creative, but have been blessed with a handful of piano and vocal students, and a directing job at the local children's theatre.

Every little bit helps :)

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I will be sure to update more often, as we begin to see signs of the cancer's growth.


May God bless you and your families.
May you hold them all as Dear as I hold mine