Heart wrenching

This week has been exhausting and heart wrenching.
My Dad's health turned quite suddenly, and we all quickly realized how unprepared we are for what may lie ahead of us.

He felt some nausea on Wednesday, which slowly escalated through the weekend.
He was Very Gassy, and unable to hold down any food.
He experienced indigestion, acid reflux and a bloated belly.
All of this equalled discomfort and pain.

On Monday he went into his physician who was very reassuring.
The Dr. thought that it was a stomach virus.
He was prescribed anti acids and sent home.

He went into his oncologist yesterday, since the symptoms, though better, had not subsided.
He was still not able to  eat very much.
Today he was sent in for an emergency CAT Scan
and blood work.

We are now waiting the results.
our hearts are heavy. We are tremendously worried.
He was so full of energy a week ago.
It is hard to think that the cancer could cause so much stress so suddenly.
But at this point, who even knows what the cancer is capable of.

the hardest part of this whole journey has been the unknown.
We wait, we hope, we pray... and we live each day.
Each day is a true blessing
Each moment is heaven sent.

I cannot fathom my life without my Dad
I cannot fathom a life for my kids without their Grandfather.

He seems so very Vital to our lives.
Life is so fragile, and so fleeting.
It is unpredictable.
we truly cannot rest in the guarantee of a tomorrow
but live each precious day, each second; knowing that life on this Earth is not ours to keep.
it is simply a short opportunity to love and appreciate the gifts that we are given
so that we may ultimately grow closer to HIM.

If there is one thing I honestly, and truly realize,
It is that my dad is and always has been a GIFT
and I owe my love of God to him, because he has been my first experience of
sacrificial love and true forgiveness.

His tender guiding hand can never be forgotten.